If you don't live for something, You'll die for nothing. Through the best and the worst The struggle and sacrifice. For the true who've remained and the new blood. Motivation, undying allegiance Striving through the hardships and affliction. Every drop of blood Every bitter tear Every bead of sweat I live for this Bury Your Fucking Dead Think I fear you? BULLSHIT. Just another dumb Bitch...
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PICTURESSSSSS [25 Mar 2005|12:26pm]
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"It wasn't just an arcade, it was out home..." [25 Mar 2005|11:23am]
[ mood | crushed ]

March 25,2005. Saturday.
Timeout in the Franklin Mills Mall is being closed for good.

Everyone laughs and says it's just an arcade.
An arcade I spent a good 6 years of my life in.
That's the arcade everyone went to when you ran away,
or if you and your family got into a fight.
Everyone there was like a family. Everyone knew about everything
and sometimes that wasn't good, and sometimes that wasn't bad.
I remember when It was Asian Jasons 18th birthday and no one
remembered. But me, Steve, John Kent, Melissa,Boo, and Sean.
And we made him cake and bought him presents.
I'd get kicked out of my house and that is where I met Nick,Jeff, and Jim.
Was that a fun turn of events!?
So everyone who was/is/still will be a mall rat of the Franklin Mills Mall...
Go to Time Out Tomorrow to say good-bye to the people you once knew.

I know I will always be proud of what I was and what I will always remember...

2 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

You Break My Heart Into a 1,000 Pieces and You say It's Because I deserve Better? [24 Mar 2005|01:23pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I remember I use to listen to songs and It would remind me of the someone that I loved so much,
And now I listen to songs and I get angry at myself and start working out.
All My Rage goes towards power and I know that's not good.

VoicesNmyhed: "Distance is a problem"
A.k.a
"I'm going to go fuck other girls".

"Close your eyes, just settle settle.
I've got a bad feeling about this...
I'm coming over but it never was enough...
"

"Drop everything...
Start it all over...
Remember more than you'd like you forget
"

I know Rob is going to yell at me for this one...


This Time...



I will....



REMEMBER!!!!



YOUR FACE



YOUR TOUCH



YOUR POISONED KISSES



<\3

1 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

I want to take pictures. [23 Mar 2005|09:03pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

The stubble on my face engraves my lack of compassion
I’m counting the grass blades to pass the time
Queen-sized comfort awaits my tired eyes
Remember me?
I’m your satire’s locksmith
You referred to the way of the sword as hope
Despite the blade in your back
Two days pass and there is still no sign of the sun
But your wait calmly playing checkers with your gut instinct
On the contrary to the heart’s self-imprisonment
Your horse shoes fall like hail
I hear your name in the wind my collapsible heart skips a beat
You remain in my head only as a bitter-sweet memory
I’ve given up sleep
So I can pray for you
Day by day, I bite my tongue
The mental song is sung out loud
It shakes the ground beneath you

Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

I Got EXTREMELY BORED. [23 Mar 2005|06:43pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Self-Lovin'43.3%
When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself
65.1%
Shamelessness50%
It takes a couple of drinks
79.2%
Sex Drive 68.4%
A fool for love, but not always
77.6%
Straightness26.8%
Done the nasty, but not creatively
44.5%
Gayness 26.8%
At least one weekend of ecstacy
83.8%
Fucking Sick81.4%
Refreshingly normal
90%
You are 50.38% pure
Average Score: 72.6%
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

I care. But don't ask me to talk to you when you avoid me. [23 Mar 2005|02:10pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]


THIS TIME


I WILL


REMEMBER


YOUR FACE


YOUR TOUCH


YOUR POISONED KISSES.


x RaInSeeKeR x: So I'm guessing I won't be able to see or talk to you for awhile?
vOiCeSnMyHeD13: most likely
x RaInSeeKeR x:
x RaInSeeKeR x: Hurry and get a job.
vOiCeSnMyHeD13: i just called a place
x RaInSeeKeR x: If I get a job before you, I'm killing you.
2:35 PM
vOiCeSnMyHeD13: haha
x RaInSeeKeR x: Seriously.
vOiCeSnMyHeD13: i applied at 3 places in the past 2 days
x RaInSeeKeR x: Alright.
x RaInSeeKeR x: I'm going Friday and picking up my stuff from FYE and if I get that job..I'm punching you in the face.
vOiCeSnMyHeD13: if you ever see me again
x RaInSeeKeR x: Don't say that
x RaInSeeKeR x: I hate it when you say shit like that.
vOiCeSnMyHeD13: well its true

Alright. Or don't talk to me ever again.
That's the cool fucking thing to do.
Just, take it and run with it.
Whatever.
I'm fucking tired of it.
I don't fucking need you.
SORRY FOR CARING WHETHER YOU MAKE IT THROUGH LIFE.
MY BAD.
AVOID THIS!
*Gives Him The Finger*
>:P

2 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

Look what Rob Made Me. [21 Mar 2005|07:21pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v310/seraphwinds/google.jpg

This is Extremely cute. I giggled.
♥♥♥♥

x RaInSeeKeR x: You like me?lol
x RaInSeeKeR x: You're always arguing with me.
x RaInSeeKeR x: And getting mad at me
CarbonatedDevil: I'm always worrying about you.
CarbonatedDevil: Yeah, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to worry. It's not like I see you that often to make sure you're doing well. So I complain through IMs that you need to be careful.
x RaInSeeKeR x: And you get mad at me and accuse me of getting with other people whom I didn't >_>;;
CarbonatedDevil: I also went out with the evil one for over four years...I'm prone to gigantic mistakes?
x RaInSeeKeR x: Yeah but you deleted me and refused to talk to me for like..weeks.
CarbonatedDevil: I didn't talk to you for days dear. For which I apologized, more than once...for being stupid.
CarbonatedDevil: You're not ugly, don't even go there. You can be mean, but most of the time I find it cute cause you're not being mean to me. Boring..nah, IMs get pretty dull but I can't recall running out of stuff to talk about over the phone. You haven't annoyed me yet (amazingly...seeing as how easily annoyed I get...ex: customers). I've liked you since you were ducking under that table, wondering how the hell you could think I'm even cute let alone hot. I just haven't been able to bring myself to ask you out cause I'm a shy dumbass.
7:35 PM

2 Felt You Slip Away
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"Burning Bridges..." [21 Mar 2005|03:13pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Saturday: Terror, Sinai Beach, and Comeback kid at the church. It's like $12.00 or some crap like that.
And I heard As I Lay Dying is coming with Throwdown and Like Full Blow Chaos or something Gay. Or was that Agnostic Front? I dunno. I don't pay attention anymore.
Battle of the bands Wednesday at Nazareth, but I don't know if I'll be going. I don't feel like getting jumped. Still can't get hit in the kidney-Jawn.
Death to this nigga' would be horrible.
Spring Break is almost here nucca's. Do yew bel-lead dat?

Burning Bridges Burning Bridges
Shut Myself Off From The World
Burning Bridges Burning Bridges
Shut Myself Off From Life

As The Ashes Fall As The Ashes Fall
Through The Fire Through The Flame
As The Ashes Fall As The Ashes Fall
Through The Fire Through The Flame

Life Purified Again
I Won't Look Back
To The Chains That Bound Me
I Won't Look Back
To The Chains That Bound Me

I Will Lay Rest My Ghosts
And Cover My Footsteps
I Will Stand Up Straight And Walk Away
Leaving Them Far Behind
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

I'mmm backkkkk. [20 Mar 2005|07:32pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Hahaha.
Why am I writing in here?! I DON'T KNOW.
I got bored.
And I wanted some attention So FEED ME ATTENTION!

8 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

This letter Was Written By Bri In My Other Journal... [26 Jan 2005|08:32pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

hey chrissy, if i wasnt goin to florida you know id go to your soccer practice, whether you liked it or not. lol, i just remembered we never challenged eachother at bass. you'll still probly kick my ass... im gonna miss talkin to ya. you know im always here for you no matter what, and you will find someone and they will be perfect. i'll help you find someone if you want me to, but thats up to you. :( im gonna miss you more than my other friends... ok well, i dont know what else to write so im just gonna end it here.. :hugs: ttyl
-Bri
p.s. - if rich keeps bein a douche bag im gonna go wang chung on his ass

Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

Oh. Dude I love this mother effing thing. [05 Jan 2005|04:47pm]
[ mood | sad ]

My friend of Misery-Metallica is the best song.
Just the bass riff is so depressing. =[

3 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

Survey I stole from the Gabbitha<3 [27 Dec 2004|12:16pm]
[ mood | no shower ]

-sex: Female
-birthday: December 9,1988
-color: BLACK.RAWR. Not really..Pink, Black..Red..Gray
-sign: Sagittarius
-place of birth: Philly
-current residence: Philly (CHALFONT NuCCA)
-hair color: Blonde. Dirrrty blond.
-eye color: Blue Gray
-height: 5'4
-writing hand: Right

-BODY
ILLS + SKILLS-

-do you bite your nails: Yes.
-can you roll your tongue: From the back up to the front. ♥
-can you blow smoke rings: No.
-can you blow spit bubbles: When I'm bored
-can you cross your eyes: No. I Fall over
-tattoos and where: I want millions
-do you make your bed daily:No. My blankets are practically all over the floor.
-what's sexiest on a guy: the Hair. And The eyes...The way he looks at me.
-what's sexiest on a girl: *shrugs* Hips. Then you worl your way up.
-do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: Twirl.
-what utensils do you use eating pizza: No. But if it's Pizza Hut I dab it with napkins 'cause of the grease...EWWW
-do you cook: With my trusty microwave.:D Because, it's already made.

-GROOMING-

-how often do you brush your teeth:Twice a day.
-do you shower/bathe: Yeap.
-how long do these showers last: 40 minutes if I'm shaving.
-hair drying method: Air.
-do you pee in the shower: OMG! YEAH! If I really need to go, there's no sense in getting out, sitting on the toilet and peeing. That makes the toilet seat all wet and makes you looked like you peed all over it. It gets washed off with soap and goes down the drain anyway.
-what color is your bedroom: Celestial.(Pictures Coming soon)
-do you use an alarm clock: In the Morning for school.
-name four things or people you're obsessed with: Talena Atfield, Candice, Muh Windmill Baby
-what's your sleeping position: In a ball.
-what kind of bed do you like: The Kind that..I fall asleep in.
-in hot weather do you use a blanket: Yes. I sleep naked.
-do you sleepwalk: I used to.
-do you talk in your sleep: Yeah
-how about the light on: My DVD blinks
-do you fall asleep with the TV or radio: Radio.

-WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU-
had sex: I'm a virgin.
watched bambi: Hardcore movie right there...
cried: Christmas Eve, Christmas and yesterday
talked on the phone: James Called me this morning pretending everything was fine.
read a book: I have two book reports due.

-MUSIC-
is music important to you: Yeap.
do you sing: Yeap
what instruments do you play: Bass and Rocking On Future Kate Drums
what do you think of Eminem: He's awesome.
in your opinion what band is the best of all time: KITTIE

DO YOU
LIKE-
pop music: Nope.
punk music:Good Charlotte= Stabbing myself in the ears
rap music: Lil Jon! WHOAA KAY
hip-hop/RB: Yeah. It's nice.
country: Let me light my face on fire
jazz: Spongebob: "You need to aquire a taste for Jazz"
classical: Yeah
new age: No
hardcore: MY MOTHERFUCKING LIFE
indie rock: No
emo: I fucking DESPISE emo.(I'm not the only one)

- DO YOU/ARE YOU-
Could you live without the computer?: No.
What's your favorite fruit?: Grapefruit
What hurts the most? Phsyical/emotional pain?: Emotional.

- NUMBER-
Of times you have had your heart broken?: 3
Of hearts you have broken?: 10000000000
Of girls kissed?: 10
Of boys kissed?: 56
Of drugs taken illegally?: 3
Of tight friends?: 3
Of CD's owned: ...I have no idea
Of scars on my body?: Too many to count..


-ARE YOU A...-
Wuss: No. fuck that shit.
Druggie: No.
Gang member: KILL KREW Motha Fucka
Daydreamer: Yes.
Alcoholic: Sometimes
Freak: I don't know.
Brat: Beth Rudolph
Sarcastic: Yeah.
Goody-goody: Nooooo.
Angel: No.
Devil:Evil
Friend:I hope so.
Shy: NO
Adventurous: Hell yeah
Intelligent: When I want to be

-SELF
ANALYSIS YOU PROBABLY DON'T WANT TO DO-
Your best feature [personality]: Funny.
Most annoying thing you do: Blame myself, put myself down.
Biggest mistake you've made this far: Saying GoodBye to Brian
Describe your personality in one word: Awesome.
A smell that makes you smile:Food
A city you'd like to visit: London.
A drink you order most often: Alcoholic? Smirnoff
The music you prefer while alone: KITTIE
A TV show you watch regularly: ...None

bloomdumblithium: Lithium: Hmm heres some advice from someone who is getting married march 17th 2011!!!!!!!! <33333......Fighting with Christine over other girls isn't worth it, theres no point in it to play mind games with her, shes got plenty of guys after her, shes been hurt multiple times and I dont wanna see it happen again.....when your on your death bed your not gonna be worried about who made who look bad, who you were with, your gonna be wondering if you did everything you wanted to do the way you planned it, its not worth it
x RaInSeeKeR x: ..I love you kate<3

4 Felt You Slip Away
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I feel as if I'm losing my best friend. I Can't believe this could be the end... [21 Dec 2004|10:27am]
[ mood | crushed ]

The title explains it all.
Yesterday was the end of a fabolous experience I've ever had in my life.
But it had it's down sides.
We decided to stop the friendship because apparently I wasn't doing a good job.
And I wasn't...
I look over the pictures and the profile, and I sit in class...
Wanting to take a hall pass.
I didn't mean for things to turn out the way they had turned out. I guess, I didn't want things to change. I wanted to treat her the way she made me feel. And apparently that was bad. So I just sat there and didn't do anything, because I didn't know what to do.
I wish things went back to the first day we met. The day when, if someone fucked with her I'd break their face. When we'd walk through the mall and there were no other friends, it was just me and her hanging out.
If someone saw me or her they'd ask where the other one would be. I miss that.
I felt replaced so I started making up excuses and I wanted to make her feel replaced. But I guess it went to far.
I feel as if, my whole life just wooshed away.
Because, I know that I will never have those memories i had with her, with anyone else.
If I could do it again, I'd start from the beginning. When I had bangs and short hair. THis is crazy...I feel like I just got hit by a mack truck...
.Memories.
National Gothic Day In Russia
I have PMS So Get the fuck off the DDR Machine!
I got stuck in the Matrix.
LemonRum
The Whole Brian Scene...
"Yeah Well! I HAVE YOUR HAT!"
"I smell Fat..."
Faggot on Wheels
Fruit Ball Of Fire
39 Signatures.
Stealing the Ring from Claires.
DOwn The Shore.
Going to 6 flags.
Blonde Moments.
And the best memory...
Kevin From 13 Even- "Grab The oNe you love and kiss them"
.....
I need to take a hall pass...

6 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

I'm not sugar coating it, I'm not that sweet... [06 Dec 2004|07:18pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I'm fucking tired of it. I'm writing this because I'm not going to tell everyone one by one.
Therefore, you all can read it and complain. Leave me a million comments in my journal,
try to make me feel bad, spread rumors. WHATEVER. I'm mean, because I'm tired of getting
walked over.
If you complain, leave your name please. so I can respond...in mean-ness...

My Hardcore Babii: I love you. You have no idea. I've never actually admitted all those things to anyone like I did to you that night on the phone. I enjoyed actually talking about it, even though I cried. I met you at the Korn concert, I want it to stay that way. I don't want us to change. I love hanging out with you and taking pictures. I love being dorks and making faces and saying stupid phrases like "You Know what time it is?! HARDCORE TIME". I love making fun of people with you, because you tell it how it is. If you don't like it, you'll tell them to fuck off. You're soo pretty and I love the pictures that you take. With the boob shot and you puffed your cheeks out.lmao I still have that saved to my computer. That pictures that I made of me and you. I love you and I can't wait to see you again. My oh, My Oh, My Oh, My Oh, My BoOoOoOoO. <3<3<3
"Tell her to eat a cookie and shut up."

Erkan: Yeah, you're on here too. Don't think that I don't care, because I do. I like talking to you about stuff. You're someone I can really connect with. I can talk to you about anything because your reactions to stuff is great. Collecting carts with you was awesome.lol And we got in trouble because we were running. CAN I DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE?! I'LL CUT IT! lmao. You rock. I'm always here for you. I hope we can be better friends and such.<3

James, Rich, and the "Christine Haters", or USED to be: It thrilled me when you hated me. But like I said, I'm not changing for anyone so you might as well keep hating me because, the amount of damage all of you caused isn't going to just go away. I still have the scars. Don't just befriend me and expect all trust to just appear. No. FUCK THAT. So go on and hate me if you must, but honestly I don't giva fuck!!! I don't need to be made to feel bad. Hate to break it to you, but you're all backstabbers. All of you talk shit on one another and get mad at eachother for stupid shit. And then, when you find a reasonable time to 'try' and prove yourself right, you go and ignore them. Then talk shit behind their back, pretending to be their friend. I'm glad I strangeled, yelled, beat the shit out of, and treated some of you like shit. Because, I've never acted like that before and in that case, some of you fucking deserved it.

Jackie: I've been trying to be here for you as I much as I can. I miss you and I hope you're alright because, you can't use the phone so, we don't talk as much as we use to. I can't really say anything, but the same that I said for my Hardcore Babii goes to you.I miss you babe, and I hope we can hang soon.Don't ever change and if anything every happens to you, you know my fucking number.<3<3<3

Kate: What the fuck would I do without you?Me and you have the best inside Jokes. "Murder Inc."-"Eugene"-"Got Down?"-"Scrupple"-"Battle Buddy"-"Don't Spill your fruit loops"-. I love you<3 And All the brian's in the world, should fucking die. RUBBER DUCKIE<3 RUBBER GLOVE

Kally: You're my girlfriend for a reason. I know it seems like sometimes I don't care, I really do. If anything happened to you I'd probably kick myself in the face. I'm always here for you, and I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. I love writing letters to you and the expression on peoples faces when we kiss in the hall.<3

Jimmy<3: Sometimes I can't believe if you like me or not. I don't know why. I feel bad like, I think I have something to do with you hating that girl Pluta. Or whoever she is. I really like you, not like obsessed but you have a clue. But in the back of my head I have like, Kiker saying that all you do is play games. Ahh. I don't know. *sigh*Just forget it and find some other girl...

BRIAN MONTFORD: I'm not even going to fucking get to you. All I ever did for you and this is how you fucking treat me? I was there for you whenever you fucking needed me, and you turn around and tell people it's because I don't care. PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME HURT YOU. That's not even fucking cool. Such a cool kid like you, in such a "cool band". But you're a tool. You don't know your real friends even if they stood in your fucking face. I hate you.

and last but not least...

Brittany, herself:I'm sorry all of these things are happening to you, but I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of it. I'm not taking it anymore, I'm fucking fed up. NOW I'M NOT CARING. Every since you told me I didn't care, I thought to myself you had no idea what the fuck you were talking about, just looking for me so you can tell me what a fucked up job I was doing as a friend. I took it, felt bad about it and tried to change myself. I 'realized' (Wow, that word again) that I don't need to change anything. I didn't need to feel bad about anything, because I didn't do anything. All those times, when you called me a...
A. Moron.
B. Bitch.
D. Asshole(That seemed like a big one).
E. A Bad Friend.
F.Didn't know what I was doing.
G. Didn't know what I was talking about.
H. Didn't get it.
I. Didn't understand.
J. Retard.
K. Idiot.
L. Talking to me doesn't make you in a better mood.
M. Go Away.
N. and said that I don't care.
Let's see what I called you or said to you that made you feel like shit:
A. Bitch.
HOLY SHIT. Would you look at that! I asked you to stop and you told me I deserved everything you said to me. Two days before Fear Factory, you ditched me. I can't even count how many National Gothic Days you ditched, I don't think I have enough fingers. When did I ditch you? Once. With Andy. Because you were hanging with Rich and James and didn't seem to acknowledge my existance. Did I ditch you for any major concerts you wanted to go to? NO. I did not. I'm not saying sorry for anything anymore. If I'm being such a bad best friend, then get a new one. Stop making me feel like shit, I don't need it. I don't need to say Hi to you. I don't need to guess what's going on in your life. You have my Number, because if I ask you if you want to talk, or if what's going on, you yell at me, and then I "annoy" you and then we end up back at the top with the name calling, me feeling like shit,and me saying sorry. NOT HAPPENING ANYMORE. I made my mistakes, but for everything you say to make me feel like shit I seem to be saying sorry for. While I was concentrated with your problems, trying to make you feel better I had problems of my own, tearing me up inside.When I told you my uncle stole 10,000 dollars off my grandmom, you didn't seem to say shit about it. Kristine and Brittany and Jackie hold twice as Much information as you, because you never seemed to worry. that's cool because I never asked you to. Now I'm contradicting myself and I hate people who do that. I'm not going to continue a friendship that has these problems. Because, I fought with My sister and she's my sister, but I never said anything to her and she's never said anything to me that made me feel bad like you've said.You say that we treat you bad, that we made you feel horrible and uncomfortable, you make yourself feel uncomfortable. You say that we don't care, when we really do but you won't let us do anything about it.But you've convinced us that we don't care. You've told me and others soooo many times. You think we don't want to be your friend, we do. We have other friends and problems too that we need to handle. And then, holding things against me, like what people have been saying and who said it. You know who that reminds me of? Rich. Be Rich's friend. I don't care, but I see you two don't fight or anything. You two seem to have best friend placements for eachother. That's cool. I'm willing to work all of this out. For once, I am speaking my mind. This has been bottled up inside of me for a long time. If you don't want to work things out and keep them the way they are, then I would like all of my stuff back within' now and the 15th. I still love you with all my heart and I would take my life for you, but I'm not having this feeling anymore. I'm not pretending it's okay.

Thankyou everyone.
And Patience.
I'll expect to see a lot of
comments because, yeah.
I wrote things that people are like
"Am I really like that?"
My Mind that I'm speaking.
And Like the song says...
So go on and hate me if you must, but honestly...
I don't giva fuck!!!

3 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

I look back at everything... [24 Nov 2004|02:59pm]
[ mood | Memories.. ]

You left without saying good-bye. . .

Sometimes, I look back at me and Brian...
and I cry. I know I'm supposed to be Anti-brian and stuff.
But, that kid ment the world to me. Everything he did, made me smile.
And now, I have all these memories forced inside my head...
These months are coming up, and they are going to be the worse.
December 6..Worse day for me.

AIM IM with bloomdumblithium
3:03 PM
bloomdumblithium: :(
x RaInSeeKeR x: I remember that day, like it happened yesterday...For him to ask that question made me soo happy..
bloomdumblithium:
x RaInSeeKeR x: and then he took it away from me...
x RaInSeeKeR x: and that day hurt...so bad...
bloomdumblithium: *sigh*
3:05 PM
x RaInSeeKeR x: I wanted to talk things out..and I told him if he wanted to break up with me, then to do it now. I was sooo confident that, he would message me back saying I love you or something...
bloomdumblithium: i know how that feels, its the last thing you'd think would happen
x RaInSeeKeR x: It vibrated, I opened it. And it said "Then this is the end". And I was so shocked and numb. I couldn't breathe and at that time, tears just streamed down my face...It felt like someone just like, took my heart and lungs and took all the blood and air out..

Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

FRIENDS ONLY STUPID SLUTS!!! [11 Nov 2004|11:09am]
[ mood | FRIENDS ONLY SLUTS ]



2 Felt You Slip Away
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Yeah... [07 Nov 2004|06:34pm]
[ mood | Pissed.Aggrivated. ]

Teaches me for opening my fucking mouth.

Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

P.I.M.P L.I.F.E [04 Nov 2004|07:36pm]
[ mood | Yeah Bitch! P.I.M.P L.I.F.E ]

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6 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

This Jawn Right here is Friends only. [04 Nov 2004|06:32pm]
[ mood | Hardcore ]

Yeooo Bitches.
This is the journal for the hXc kids.
So if you want to be added, comment.
Now.
Otherwise...

i know a thing or two about you.
your bullshit attitude.
you're fucking weak
and lemme tell you it shows right through.
you don't know shit about me or my friends.
what they are what i am.
so cut the shit and try not to pretend.
you're scared of who and what we are and so you question yourself.
but your pride won't let you show your fear to anyone else.
you don't know me.
so don't judge me.
you don't know you.
you're too scared to.
you think you know.
why i'm here after all these years.
you wanna know?
well i'll tell you fucking why.
go.
for myself.
for my friends. for my family.
forever.
i'll take this to the bitter end.
you don't know a single thing about me.
just what my enemies say.
well fuck them and fuck you.
that shit won't cut it today.
be a fucking man and stand up to find the truth in yourself.
for yourself.
by yourself and not from anyone else.
you think you know.
why i'm here after all these years.
you wanna know?
well, i'll tell you fucking why, go.
so now where are you?
i'm still here,
i'm still proud and i still know what it takes to be true.
for myself.
for my friends.
for my family.
straight fucking edge.
forever.

6 Felt You Slip Away
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

[04 Nov 2004|05:22pm]
Testing..1...2...fucking 3....
Sit Back & Watch As The Sky Falls Down♥

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